Monday, June 9, 2008

Marriage...

You know, I have been considering why it works between Troy and I. We have had plenty of good reasons to quit, but we haven't. So I wondered why? We are approaching our 10th wedding anniversary, and I love him more than ever.
I think the beauty of marriage is in it's design. The Creator of marriage knew what He was doing. He created marriage to be a partnership that mirrors the relationship we find in Christ. The idea of becoming one flesh is to teach us about living with the Spirit. It is about compromise and change. I am not the same person I was 10 years ago...or even 2 or 3. My marriage reflects that. I constantly learn to mold myself to fit better with this man. Hopefully, my relationship with Christ is also constantly molding me into a better fit to be with Him...which is nothing short of perfection.
I think the Creator also knew our need for intimacy. This is what I have been considering most lately. God (that is the Creator!) longs for an intimate relationship with us but to participate in that we must understand it. I find that I desire intimacy most with Troy when he is spreading himself thin...when lots of people need him. In a room full of people, I ache to be with my husband...just to be with him. I don't know if that is jealousy or pride, but I love that after a busy Sunday, he comes home to me. This week is VBS. Troy is busy...lots of people are looking to him. I like knowing that I know him best and he knows me...it is a special connection. No one can penetrate our oneness. That makes me wonder about the ways that I allow things to come between myself and the Spirit. Do I long for intimacy with God the way that I do with my husband? Do I allow Him to know me from the inside out? Do I really want to know Him that way? If you truly consider the intimacy that a relationship with God can be...that He wants your relationship to be...it is astounding.

It constantly amazes me that when you really try to do this the way God intended....it works. Does that sound dumb? That I would be amazed when the Creator of the universe has the best way to live in it. It makes you wonder why so many people don't see it...